The World

     Unfortunately, since I was little my mind never worked like the rest. I always saw a different shade of green in the trees and while others saw two leaves simply falling I saw them dancing to the melody of the wind. I had to create a place where I could be me and express myself without being judged.

     Entering my world, you can see Jupiter shining in the light blue sky. Birds would sing and all the worlds rejected souls would come here looking for comfort. I only have one rule to all those who come here looking for happiness: keep searching for everything beautiful in this world because you’ll eventually become it. That is why, in some sort of way, this place is a chaos and beauty intertwined… a tornado of roses from divine because of the different minds and ideas. Escaping from the real world and creating my own was probably the best decision I had ever made in my life. You can all say it’s childish, but honestly I don’t care. Here is the only place where I’m free, independent, loved and I’m surrounded by the people whose happiness mean everything to me.

     In my world everybody is welcomed. You just got to have an open heart and mind, possess a desire to help others, courage, strength… but most of all, a very vivid imagination. If you ever feel down, out of place, misjudged and have the desire to go to a place where peace is our religion, I’ll be waiting in the gates of this kingdom with open arms. My world is here, is all around us. You just have to close your eyes and see.

Education

                 Growing up in a family were nobody had ever gone to university developed some sort of weight on my shoulders. Everybody wants me to do what they never did and become somebody in this life. When I was in school if I didn’t get straight A’s I’d be in serious trouble. For example, I once got home with 5 A’s and 1 B, that caused me to get grounded for a month. My mom is very liberal but very strict when it comes to my education. I was really frustrated but now at university things have changed. Experiencing this new step in my life I realize that grades are important, no doubt on that, but there are greater things to learn out there than what they teach you in classes like moral values for example.

                

        I have never considered myself smart but I am very responsible so I always try to do my best even if it takes every drop of my energy and strength to do my work. Difference now is that I don’t do it for my family, I do it for myself. Yes, I will graduate, become a professional in my area, marry and have a family of my own… But that is because I want to, because I will work for it, not because of the pressure they give me or because they want somebody of the family to grow like they never did. I get that don’t have the wrong intentions but in the level that they express it would give anybody stress and anxiety.

                

        It will be hard but I’ll focus on my education, persevere and become the full independent woman that I always wanted to be. Someday I’ll finish and I’ll see my name in shinning lights.

                

Movies: Alice in Wonderland

             Movies can sometimes transport your mind to a place where all your problems vanish. For those two hours or so, you forget the world exists and concentrate on that story line.

               

           You can all deny it, but everybody has a childhood movie. You can be 80 years old but you’ll still scream at the top of your lungs when the first song of that Disney or Pixar movie plays. I do it… More often than I should honestly. Without realizing it, there was a movie that marked me as a child and until this day I get on my pajamas, lock myself up in my room and watch Alice in Wonderland over and over all day long. Since the “movie” topic is too extended I’m going to emphasize on that particular movie.

               

         

      When I was little, my grandmother bought me the Alice in Wonderland book by Lewis Caroll and after that I found out about the movie. At that age I loved it because of the colors and all the weird species that lived together in harmony (except for the Red Queen of course). The amazing Cheshire cat always appearing in just the right moment, The White Rabbit so… weird, The Mad Hatter so innocent and loyal, and the forever lost but hopeful Alice. I looked at the movie hoping to be Alice, one day living an ordinary life and out of the blue a bunny comes to the rescue and turning my life into an adventure.

               

        

      I stopped watching it for a while but when I watched it again it was another story. It changed me forever since I got another perspective of it besides the colors and weird creatures. It showed me that I should not be afraid to express my own personality and I should challenge my creativity, like the Cheshire cat said: “The imagination is the only weapon in the war against reality”. I’ve always been a weirdo in the eyes of the world but that doesn’t stop me from expressing it in my art work.

                

       

     

      Sometimes the little things in life are the ones who give us the motivation, courage and strength to continue with our daily lives. This is not my case, I honestly have another reason to live, but movies like this one definitely give me that extra push I need to be the person I wish to become. 

Celebrity

                Usually my inspirations in life are people who had made an impact in me. A family member, friends… But this case is different. I have one celebrity that is my motivation to keep calm in stressed times and my inspiration in every play or piece of art I create. His name is Jared Leto.

                

               Jared was born in December 26, 1971 in Los Angeles, California. Now part of my favorite band called 30 Seconds to Mars along with his brother Shannon Leto and Tomo Miličević. He’s a singer, actor, songwriter, director, producer and businessman. I’m not a major fan because of his good looks (that are undeniable), I’m a fan because of his voice.

                 

               I started listening to their songs when the “This is War” album came out. I must say, his voice shocked me. It was one of those moments when you see or hear something completely out of this world. I shivered, I couldn't believe what I was hearing. In moments when I feel like the world is on my shoulders, I gather my headphones, close my eyes and listen to his voice create a perfect melody next to his brothers. Also, his lyrics are so perfect. Somehow they seem to click with every single aspect of my life and giving me some sort of realization that I’m not alone nor lost, I’m just on my way.

               

              

             Jared Leto is all about dreams, about following them and making people believe in there selves. That's what I needed in my life, an extra push for me to fight for myself and my loved ones. He's my inspiration to become somebody, make a statement in life and change somebody’s life completely in a positive way. He was a nobody from Lost Angeles, or as he calls it “The City of Lost Souls” or “The City of Angels” that became one of the most recognized public figures of this time for his amazing work. He definitely became somebody and even though he doesn’t know about my existence, he made a change in my life. If he can live his dream, why can’t I?

               

               “Let’s promise each other that we will be brave, that we will fight for what we believe in and that we will live our dreams” –Jared Leto

Media

According to the dictionary, media means “A form communication, as radio and television, newspapers, and magazines that reach or influence people widely”. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing but people have taken it too far. I understand media if it’s a way of informing positive news, documentals, etc. but people have deformed this tool and are using it for all wrongs. To start, most of them are only informing nations about the negative news worldwide. Deaths, gunshots, bombs and war. Those are the themes mostly seen when you watch the news on your TV or pick up a newspaper. A lot of positive things happen all around the world, why emphasize on the negative ones?

The one thing that I understand even less about the media now a days is its approach towards celebrities. They inform there every step and breath. There celebrities, I get that they appear on media because that is what they do. Whether they sing, dance or act its part of their job. Even if they don’t want it to be the media is part of their living in general. But there is a limit. I don’t want to know about what color dress certain artist was wearing, who got back together after a tremendous brake up in the middle of the mall or what are there secrets to maintain there “beauty”. There are children dying of hunger, on every newspaper there should be a news on the front page saying were we can donate to help their cause or things like that, not what’s Rihanna’s favorite place to travel is (I have nothing against the such said artist, I’m just giving an example). Honestly that’s why I stopped watching TV and reading newspapers. It’s ridiculous what there publishing now a days and it sickens me that some people actually like to read/watch those kinds of news. That’s why I rather read those fantasy books most of the people hate. Maybe there fantasy but they teach me more about ethics, morals and give me a more positive impact on life itself more than actual newspapers or social media (besides the adventures and amazingly written characters on some books, obviously). 

Marrige

They say you spend your entire life trying to rewriting the first poem you ever loved. It’s impossible. That poem is a unique masterpiece that you can’t find anywhere no matter how much you try. You spend your entire life looking for that humble soul that once passed through your eyes but never had enough courage to say a single word, but sometimes, just sometimes you have had it by your side the entire time.

There is no better feeling like being lost, defenseless, tired, unworthy… and that somebody comes along and makes you feel like every single one of those sleepless nights filled with nameless poems are worth something. I knew I’d spend the rest of my life trying to draw or write something as beautiful as that encountering but I never could. Again, it’s impossible. Once you’ve experience that amazing feeling of being found, you start to live. Everything has a new perspective, a new color. You begin to feel like your life has no meaning if it’s not besides that person who saved you from darkness. You wish you unite your life with that soul in the most deep and spiritual way possible. That’s were marriage comes along.

Why not? Why not wanting to reinforce to the world that that person is your one and only true love. That you don’t wish to know about the people on the outside world because with that person, with that little broken poetry that knows your past and understands why you wake up crying in the middle of the night and still thinks you’re as beautiful with your crocked smile and watery cheeks as if you were with make-up and a white long dress… You only wish to know about that soul, the light of your heart.

I’m not married yet, but I know that the moment I say “I do” will be as beautiful as the breath and a smile in between kisses. To unite two kingdoms might be the best experience any human can have. Rule hand in hand with the one who understands your every flaw and loves your every imperfection. 

Religion

I believe. We all believe in something, it’s impossible not to. Some in God, others in some other superior force. There are people who only believe that the sun will come up every day. But the point is that they believe, and that is something.

We all need that extra push. A voice from beyond our hearts and souls to guide us through thick or thin. A force that will make us separate what’s right and what’s not. I don’t want to talk about any religion in specific because honestly that is not my thing, I don’t feel comfortable talking about it. I believe in God, not religion. I believe in faith, in following your heart. I believe in freedom, not in making somebody follow my beliefs. We should all believe in what makes us happy, feel free and alive. In something that when you’re out in the dark you feel protected and secure, to a point where you can believe that the starts were sent by that force to guide you. 

In my case, my type of faith it’s not easy, honestly I’ve come to think that following any kind of faith is hard. Every time I fail and fall in temptations I feel like I’ve betrayed the one who gave me life. But even though I’ve failed and rejected in some points in my life I’ve had to learn to keep my heart like an open window. To give and receive both trust and love. From that moment on it feels like summer. The warmth from the inside growing each and every day it’s one of the most amazing feelings you can ever have.