Happiness

People are different in every single way, so it’s no surprise that everybody has a different reason to their happiness. My happiness is nothing compared to the rest of the world. My reason to smile is a boy that’s walking around freely with my heart in his hands.

            I felt so ridiculous and naked. Every time I saw him my heart would pound so loud that I couldn’t even hear my own thoughts. Every tender half-hearted smile he gave me was breathtaking, even though it only showed half of him was there. His voice would eco in my heart. That boy’s heartbeat was music to my ears. With every hug I could feel this crazy world slow down and I would transport to a place where there would only be us. Every time he would kiss my cheek I could feel my skin melt. His hands… He had the hands that I never thought would carry my heart. I know he’s like a little broken poetry, so quiet and empty. That boy has the potential to make beautiful things even though he never believes it. He is not made out of those mean words people say that hurt him or out of those expectations that he feels he would never meet. He’s made out of this fascinating combination of emotions, thoughts, ideas and feelings that I’ve never seen in anybody else. How I wish he would look pass that mirror and see what I see.

I’ll admit I was jealous of the moon, because she could tuck him in bed at night. I’ll admit I was jealous of the stars, for being his company every lonely night and driving his fears away. I’ll admit I was jealous of the sun, for giving him that good morning kiss I could never give him. Even though he was my friend I couldn’t deny my love for him. My silent screams were slowly breaking my heart, so I decided to finally fall. I’ll admit, I was scared to know where this mix of emotions might take me but I’ve never been so happy to dance so freely on the edge of this abyss.

Now our hearts beat as one. It’s not my kingdom anymore, but ours. His tears are my tears and his smiles are my reason to think this world isn’t lost. He is my happiness, he’s the reason of it all. My voice will never be enough to tell this kind of feelings to him but he can now know by my trembling hands dancing in my keyboard and joyful tears. Josh, this is only a part of everything I could never tell you.